Firstly, I don't understand why people are so upset for Matt Smith leaving DW? I mean, that's what this show is all about - change. Or have I understood it wrong? And, he has been there forever already.. I mean, poor Eccleston only got 1 season. (I'm probably disliking 11 more because he didn't change companions like 10 did.. and it got really repetitive, I'm enjoying 11 and Clara though..)

Secondly, I have a love-hate relationship with searching for houses. It'd be all nice and stuff when I wouldn't be searching them for 3 other people, if it where just my choice. And if I actually knew anything about Bristol, which I don't, ha. And I'm actually really surprised that the searching responsibility has been mine, I never take lead in any group things, I hate leading people, urgh.

Thirdly, I'm freaking out because of jobs. Like. I feel like I don't know ANYTHING about theatre. N kept saying (ages ago though, and to be fair he hasn't seen anything I've done this year, so he really shouldn't have said anything..) (also I'm disappointed that he left Aber without saying anything to me, cool dude, very cool) how I could easily get a job in a college or uni's technical team. DUDE, I know nothing. NOTHING. And I really feel like working in theatre isn't something you can learn from a textbook, it has to be actual experience, and so far, I haven't seen any job offers in Bristol. Which kind of wants me to just go and say: "Oy, dudes and dudette, sorry, but I'm not coming, I'm going to London instead". But then I find myself thinking that I'll end up in London anyway, sooner or later.. That's where everything theatre is in UK, and you can't help yourself not ending up in London if you want any work in theatre. So maybe it's better that I'm in Bristol. Maybe I won't get a job in theatre, well at least not straight away, but I'm close to everywhere, and I can experiment, and yeah.
I'm very scared of the future. Very.